well erin finally went on her long and waited vaction to see her friend tiffany i saw her face when she left she was so happy she bought along her sister with her it took her almost 2 days up and back. erin got back and showed me her haircut which looked very pretty and cute.Well me and erin broke up and all i can do is think about her i dont know how long we will be apart but i dont want to be for very long.today i saw 3 girls that looked almost like erin and i started to think about her now im starting to regret everything i did to her and how i made her feel when i was a jerk and a idiot.I only feel hatered towards me not erin or anyone else. i miss her smile and the way she made me felt when i was with her knowing that erin doesnt love me anymore makes me feel like im not even alive inside and i just want to crawl into a hole and dissapeared i dont think anyone will miss me though. I even felt weird when i picked up the money from her mom on wensday i think it was cause i wanted to ask her erin was doing but i couldnt i guess i didnt want to realize that she was doing better without me. I miss my little boy and little guy (edgrr and simmy ) even now im starting to get tears in my eyes just by thinking of them all i miss brittant too and everyone at the house erin hasnt called me sence monday which is the day we broke up i still love erin too death i would still die for her even if i found someone new it wouldnt be the same feelings i had towards erin and now i know thats how she felt when she broke up with jason that she wouldnt have the same feelings with me as she did with erin i wont even ask for any of the game system i bought her back there is so much i wanted to say to erin but i cant cause of this shit grrr damn i hate myself all to hell im so fucking stupid and i dont deserve anyone else cause ill just messed up with them well to anyone whos reads my crap im sorry and i hope everything goes the way u hope they will in ur relationships or whatver else you hold dear too